I could hear my heart beating out of my chest. I knew a decision had to be made and soon.
I knew my Mental Health was being stretched to a limit, but I didn’t know what to do or where to turn to. I found myself at a crossroads in my life. Would I keep going down the path I was going and hope that my mental health would survive or would I forge a new path and start down the road of meditation.
I chose the path of meditation and dove in head first. My mental health was saved. Even if only for a moment.
When I first started down my spiritual path I was dealing with one big obstacle, my thoughts.
Was I doing the right thing
Was I making the right choices
Was I good enough
Was I capable of being successful
Was I getting in my own way
The one thing that my teachers and gurus taught me was that we should embrace our thoughts by not changing anything about them and through meditation we will find the answers that we are seeking. Overtime I was witness to searching for all the wrong things, wrong people, wrong situations. You name it I was searching for it.
Then something happened.
I stopped running from my unsettling thoughts. I stopped escaping from the truth. I quit making excuses for why I behaved the way I did.
I found transparency in my meditation practice.
How did meditation impact my mental health. It brought clarity and truth to my existence.